Funny that sometimes I am angry deep down inside. It really isn’t like me – not my personality. I think maybe it is the side effect of illness or medication, but I am responsible for my emotions and my life. A little bit of the Dragon slips out and before I know it I am spitting fire and can’t quite stop the smoke or the collateral damage.
Lately I have become a very quiet person. I do at times wonder if my silence fuels the anger, but the idea is irrelevant. I will not explode.
I can do what all Dragons must— find my internal center, say my prayers, look for calm. Otherwise we are out burning down villages, ruining lives and making things unpleasant for everyone. Anger has no place ruling a dragon’s life. Give it up.
Sometimes I think my behavior teaches the wrong things to the people around me. I am in pain, so I become easily angered. I am tired, so I have no interest. I am trying to focus on my writing, so I ignore your needs. I am not always the person I want to be…
Maybe these are not the things I want to convey at all.
What do I learn from you?
“Whatsoever you do to the least of my brothers, that you do unto me.”
I came into the world kicking and screaming and completely naked. I brought absolutely nothing here with me… and I will take nothing with me when I leave. No amount of money or power can change this reality. Life is a temporary thing, a journey, not an end.
As fragile and delicate as a gentle breeze, the spark of life is earthbound and then gone. Look around. What do you gain through harsh actions, intolerance, impatience and anger?
Myself, I gain very little. I wallow in attempts to assert my ego… and the clock is ticking. No matter what I accrue I will leave the world as I first came into it, unburdened by everything…perhaps except the weight of my deeds.
Have a wonderful Sunday!